"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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These are words by Beyonce upon hearing the death of Michael Jackson.
I'm not a great fan of Michael Jackson.

But, I have a personal touch to that statement.
A life of satisfaction, filled with breakthroughs, with adventures, with joy, with love.
I wouldn't exchange this for a longer life of mundane routines and obliged responsibilities.
Every moment, I wanna make it extraordinary and phenomenal the way Mj created a new revolution in the music industry. He definitely made it big.


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I've this sudden resolution - To change my writing style.
Yes, I know when the mention of resolution, you would be thinking of something grand and transforming. Nay, nothing of that sort actually.
I just wanna change my writing style; from the high-low roller coaster mood rides my readers get, to the nonchalant and simple way.
Well, this is almost impossible, with my emotional and impulsive nature. Well, it's just a thought. But, I'll give it a try.

I've been studying, honestly. And I realised books are my new therapy. When I say books, it would mean econ notes and literature novels. And I stayed home all these days, no videos and hangouts. Just study, eat and sleep.
No exaggeration man. I thought I wouldn't pull through all these mundane studying. But thank God, it wasn't torturing and dreadful at all.
Ok, I sound like a nerd who mugs and loves nothing but books. haha.

After exams would be shopping therapy. I've been eyeing on something for reaally long. Ok, but before I even shop, I have to clear my debts accumulated. Rach, Adina, Belly, Ky and Ican't rmb.
Oh shit, I feel my future will be indebted to the bank for my credit card loans. Or worst, I will be chased by loan sharks lane after lane.
Well, reminds me of the movie "Catch me if you can" by Leonardo DiCaprio. Sounds like a load of fun , playing hide and seek with loan sharks! WHOOHOO.
Ok, please know that this is sarcasm.

Alright, I'm getting a lil cranky here. It's 5am now, pardon me. And I'm afraid, cause I think I heard someone knocking at my door. ****************
Midyears are around the corner, and I'm left with a week & more to study.
I managed to complete math and starting on econs. But it dawned upon me how I've too much to study and too lil' time. *screams* SAVE ME SOMEBODY !


Now till midyears :
1) No more staying up late till 3, 4 ams.
2) No more video marathons & facebooking.
3) No more hanging outs.
4) No more distractions !


Okay, from now on, I've absolutely no life and gonna mug my ass off. Bless me.





I need my sort of escapism or drug. But trust me, I learnt my lesson. It's definitely not relationships.
I've realised. I've learnt. It's time to say goodbye to this drug.
It's a vow made for my sake...

Cause I realised I ain't that strong to overcome the hurt and pain which came along with love.

Ain't that strong... **************** Ok, two weeks of my holidays have passed and I haven't hit the books yet. I should die at this instant. I've been playing too hard ! GAWD, where's my studious being? I think that soul fly off to fiona's house (cause she's mugging like a pig)

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Favourite picture! All smiley. Lovely.

I shall make this June holiday fulfilling. I shall finish JC in one piece with no regrets. Make this work Lora.

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