"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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YOU STOLE MY HEART, BANDIT.

A few of us gathered at a park one late night, having a couple of drinks, chatting and bitching. And somehow, our topics drifted to exams and school. "What are you gonna do if we screw up our senior year and fail damn badly?" Joehann went- 'Idk, we can get together & start some business!' And Estherg rebutted, 'No no, just rob a bank.' I said I would join the army and then marry some rich kid. We all came up with all sorts of answers, Josie was the best,"heck, just be a pornstar." Hahahahaha.

I've got a really hot godma.
At 'ShopnSave', when you shop over an amount of money, you'll get free rebates which comes in small tokens. So one morning, we went to to 'ShopnSave', there were a few old aunties waiting at the entrance. Apparently these old aunties were waiting for shoppers to give them their rebates. Usually people don't keep those rebates cause they come in very very small amount and would offer these old aunties by being kind. So they approached my godma and asked if she has the rebates, she said,'Have! But I don't wanna give you.' (In Mandarin) Omg, it was damn funny.
She bullies old grannies!!!

This week was just, -.

10 things I hate...
when you don't pick up calls or reply texts,#1
you tell me 3 hours before a date, you can't make it,#2
you make changes be it venues, timing, etc, as if I can read your mind.#3
when you pretend to be someone else when you are with others.#4
when you say it yet you don't show it.#5
when I found out you lied,#6
you keep things away from me.#7
when you say you miss me, but still can't find a way to see me.#8
when I've to guess who you truly are.#9
when I can't stop the feeling of loving you.#10

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HON WEEK.

This week flew real quick. And I realised I haven't touched any school work. Imma so dead. Christmas is near, and I have plans for any days except eve and xmas. Well people, date me on these days! There's so many things I wanna do before my holiday ends, shit. I need another two months of break!!!

Btw, Fiona is a BAD HOST. hahahaha. She's being a bitch too, clapping and slapping making horny noises. And we are not even on alcohol. Crap, that's what happen when your mommy's not home.

HER HON FACE.

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These are one of those nights when you are all alone, no phonecalls, no dates, no parties. It feels pretty hollow within. And when you needed some sort of answers, it feels as if the whole world is avoiding you. It makes you wonder wtheck am I home when people are having a whole load of fun out there. Though it's just this one night that you're home, it feels damn shitty. It sucks to feel awake in the middle of the night when you know maybe you can get some fun out there.
F, why am I so angsty. Maybe waikit is right about me having a disease.

The consequences that came along with all the fun are far more deadly than anything else. Yet, I chose those fun nights because sometimes, the thirst of my heart is more torturing than anything else. ****************

BACK TO SQUARE ONE.

I'm back from UK, and obviously I'm suffering from jetlag looking from this unearthly hour that I'm still online. UK's great. The places are beautiful, so are the people. It feels really relax, and I could just gaze my eyes upon the beauty of the mountains and streets. Pictures are soon to be out when my friends upload them.
And joehann dan, you suck, I tried contacting you at UK, you didn't pick up your call. I was thrilled to see you, you totally broke my heart. :( Thank god you are coming back later in the month, Imy soo much.

As I returned, my heart sank. You're back to reality girl, I told myself. All the troubles that I cast away and left behind in Spore, crept into my heart the moment I'm back home. England feels like a dream. I didn't have to worry about life, family, boys, school, etc. Coming back feels as if I've got a whole load of shit waiting for me to overcome. When I shut my eyes, I could sense the pressure and tension overwhelming my being. And I knew 2010 would be another year of shit. It feels like a thunderstorm about to arrive, along with a choppy sea. It really feels damn crappy.

Resolution, I wanna be capable of kissing my scars away.
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