Saturday, November 14, 2009
Letters.
To: boy #1Hey sweetheart, everything halt. Yet, the fondness grows greater and greater each day. Imy, everyday. It's tough to get by, cause it's everything without you. But life moves on no matter how much desire there is for the past. The tension seems to grow between the both of us. It makes me wonder if you're my boy. But I can't deny that there was once a time when you had my heart fully to yourself. When you decided that you throw away half of it, you change my perspective, you change my heart. Crude to say, you can't blame me for what I've become, cause it started all from you. Ily more than you ever realised. You never see things deep enough, yet many times, the heartfelt truths are all buried deep down in the heart. To: boy #2Hey honey, maybe you aren't ready for me. But I can't wait for you my lifetime. Cause it is unfair and I wonder if you're really worth the wait. Sometimes I told myself that you're pretty much a very good catch. But I can't let you have it your way all the time, I want to know how much I mean to you. I want to know if I'm worth the chase. By merely telling me wasn't enough for me to know my worth. I need that adrenaline rush, I need that humility. And you ain't showing any of those signs. To: boy #3Hey darling, things between us have been rather awkward. There's so many things I hope I can tell you, but the barriers and distractions around us are way too much for us to spend time together. I feel awful for not knowing what to say upon seeing how screwed up you are. I'm really lost for words, and feel so inadequate and helpless, cause I can't walk this path with you. It is as if I left you behind, and you have to scramble by yourself. Yet, I feel that ache. Maybe the special bond between us was just a misleading path. We are just meant to be buddies. Maybe we both carried out a lil too far, and it's time we get back to where we meant to be. P.S: Special & dear in your very own ways. P.P.S: I love you.
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Friday, November 13, 2009
I can't sleep despite being under several medications. I'm bloody affected by the release of the Promotional results. That feeling sucks knowing that you'll move on, leaving a few people behind. I don't know how to tell 'someone' that it's all gonna be alright, cos I know it isn't. This is one occasion that you have no idea what to say or do to make 'someone' feel better. All I can say is, I'll be here for you all the way.
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
11/11
MAKE A WISH.
It's eleventh november. 11/11
And I made a few wishes... I wish, for daddy & mommy to get back. I wish, situation at home to get better. I wish, for special someone.I wish, you forgive. I wish, to truly love once again. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Had lotsa fun with my classmates. 'Kewl' gang of people to hang out with! I love the black, the white, the minahz and the lianz. HAHA.
entourage.
Learn to love, back to basics.
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Monday, November 2, 2009
happy birthday, my bitches.
hey girls ! Sweet seventeennnn! I hope your special days are filled with much joy laughter love. One more year to eighteen! That will spell freedom ! (haha, we'll do naughty things together!)
SHANICE DEAR, we used to bicker alot during secondary sch days. but somehow we learn to tolerate with each other alot tis yr. Probably because we see each other less often. We should really meet up more often. love you sweetheart. study hard !
And FIONA, can't thank you anymore for what you've done for me. As much as I would like to throw a party for you, I'm tight down with sch and other stuff. Well, we always have next yr!
abcdefghappy !
happy seventeen girls. love you all.
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