"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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If love didn’t exist, I could have got angry with all the people I want and even let it builds to hatred.
If love didn’t exist, I would let hatred influence my actions.
If love didn’t exist, I could spew all sorts of vulgarities on the people I hate.
If love didn’t exist, I would judge and gossip.
If love didn’t exist, I would have taken revenge on whomever gets on my back and it would be double, triple of more of the pain and hurt I got.
If love didn’t exist, I could backstab, betray, cheat, lie and not feel any sense of guilt; but feel a sense of satisfaction.
If love didn’t exist, I would have led a life based on my appearance and status.
If love didn’t exist, I could drink, smoke, drugged, and done all sorts of harmful things to my body.
If love didn’t exist, I would not take up that responsibility of my own life.
If love didn’t exist, life is a trash.
If love didn’t exist, all I knew was to live for and by myself.
If love didn’t exist, loneliness and emptiness is my friend.
If love didn’t exist, I would get hurt and hurt others.
If love didn’t exist, I would always be chasing after the world which is a never-ending road.
If love didn’t exist, I would be wallowing in self pity; drowning in sorrows and bitterness.
And if love didn’t exist, my God wouldn’t exist.

Love wasn’t anything at all until my God showed up. Love wasn’t that great and beautiful until He showed up.
Love exists when God created the heavens and the earth which was once formless and empty.
Love exists when God separated darkness and light.
Love exists when God created the sky, the sea, the ground.
Love exists when God created all sorts of creatures; from those that swims to those that flies.
And love exists when God created man in His own image and likeness and let us rule over everything on earth.
Love exists when God created every man in their own ways; so beautiful and so special.
Yet sin destroyed that beauty of man.
Love continues to exist when God sent His one and only son to die on the cross for the sins of man and allow a direct access to have a relationship with Him.
Love exists even till today no matter how corrupted and polluted the world is, for our Father God exists.

Love is just another action until God displays it to His capacity that no man can ever fully express and explain that depth of it.
That love God gave was so much, so consuming, so pure that it can never be simplified just by that four letter word, “love”. It is God. Love is God. And if God didn’t exist, how would love exist? And if love didn’t exist, how would I exist?

1 Corinthians 13: 1-2,"If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but not love, I'm only a resounding gong or clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but not love, I am nothing"

I'm nothing without God for He is love.

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