"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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Loneliness is fascinating. People tend to say that they are lonely all the time . But it's a code word for something else. Probably they can't recover from their childhood damage, or they have decided to hate their current life and put a dead to it.
I don't know, I had lunch with a man once who kept complaining about his soup. It was too hot, it was too salty. I remembered him putting his spoon down next to the bowl with a practiced; like a slow, theatrical gesture of disgust. The soup was a personal affront to him. I suppose he was a flustered and impertinent man who has a bad past with soup. (like how he fell out with his wife over soup and got divorced. And he's lonely all because of the soup.)
Maybe some never felt that love shown in movies or read in books. They were desperately looking for partners, seeking to satisfy that innate desire. That's their code word. And most of the time, the love they saw in movies and books were superficial. The more they tried to grasp it, the more they found themselves empty and broken.
Ironically, there were people who had a pleasant past, too fulfilling, causing them to linger in the past and struggle with the present for the inability to see what's ahead of them. Too much of a past which destruct the present of a life. loneliness...

Loneliness is fascinating.
Loneliness is a code word for what?
That's for you to decide.

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