"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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Peeps, sorry for not really being myself nowadays. (Like how I got easily flustered and emotional at times. You know what I mean.)
Questions that you guys asked and I didn't manage to give an answer:

"Hey, what happened to you? Did anything happen?"
;Nay. Nothing happened. I guess I meant by nothing major happened. Not that something happened. Okay, I'm confusing you guys and maybe that's because I myself ain't that sure what happened to me too.

"Is everything going fine? Like your school and family?"
;Yes, it's so fine that I don't even know whether that's a problem itself. Too much of that fineness don't seem to work well for me.

"Why do you have to always speak like that?"
;I'm really sorry for being sarcastic at times. I really didn't mean to do so and I won't find any sort of excuses for my blatant comments.

"Why are you so ignorant, self-absorbed or even emotional?"
;Well, I hope I ain't that way. And I really don't think that I'm self-absorbed. Cause if I am, I wouldn't be bothered to ponder upon that question you posted me with.
;Ok, I choose to be ignorant for certain things like your displeasure and discontentment towards some people. At least I bother to listen. That's the best I can offer you as a friend.
;I know that I'm very emotional and I'm sorry for being that way. I really can't help myself with that. It's too overwhelming I should say.

"Are you doing well spiritually? Are you doing your quality quiet time consistently?"
; Oh please, I do my quiet time everyday. Talking about the quality, probably not all the time. But I really did put in effort for getting my quality up.

"Are you sure you are doing well with God? What exactly is the problem here?"
;I hope you will tell me what's the problem cause I have no idea what the heck happened.

"Are you struggling in your walk with God?"
;I shall manage a yes answer the fact that I tend to be so emotional nowadays. I'm struggling to walk alongside with God. And I find it so difficult to be consistent in my walk with God. I know I need to pray more. And probably fast. I know what I need to do and am still getting on it.

"Why did you stop being who you are?"
;I never stop. I'm always me. I do not struggle with identity problem. I'm sure of who I should be and who I need to be. I'm still getting on it.


These are some questions that I've answered. I know I seem to be angst and troubled. I know that people have been utterly disappointed with me. Well, I just need to sort out my thoughts and emotions and I will get right back at track. Stop advising me and even lecture me. I know what I need to do alright. I guess I'm just tired and worn out.
And don't see me as a troubled kid. I just need to get some time for perhaps a break. ****************