"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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Why are there times when you thought you've given it all to God and out of the blue, all the emotions settled to where it used to be? I guess I haven't been really truthful of the way I feel about things or even people.
It sucks when you feel like you are back to the same old routine, with the same old attitude. And you have to start all over again to re-adjust your lifestyle. And everytime when you fall, you get a lil more discouraged & disheartened. Wondering, when will all these falls-and-pickups come to an end. And the will to do what you have to eventually subside. Yet, deep down, you are still expecting more in life. Or rather, you yearn or desire to have something more. It's not wanting to have a good school to study in, a better job, a partner to get you through or even money. It's something more than all those stuffs. However, you can't spell out clearly what exactly you want. But definitely, you know you need something more.
Then again, you haven't been truthful to the way you feel about this yearning. You chose to ignore it as it seemed unattainable.

Many times my dreams overlap with the responsibilities in life. When I'm still attempting to fulfill my dreams, things just get in the way, causing me to lose all the will to succeed. And all the attempts turn to responsibilities. But I still wanna stay truthful to what I truly want. Cuz that's something that will never change.

Like what Rosaline mentioned, "Even if you don't know where to start or how to continue, be sincere to your heart...Because feelings make you alive and living." ****************