"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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I hope that I will be getting more with what I have now. I don’t wish for anything more sometimes. Yet, there’ll be times when life plays a lil trick on you. It will get on your back and tries to offer you a lil more of it, leading you to think that probably there’s really more in life and more to life. Most of the time, I buy that because no one truly wish to have just that in life. Anyone and everyone always wish to have more. And I’m no exception. So when I said I don’t wish for anything only applies to sometimes.

Well, hopefully the twist of lifestyle will allow me to have a twist of perception. All I am looking for is merely a breakthrough. A breakthrough of what I am and have now; simple as that.

I’m not giving up on anything. I’m just trying. Trying to see how far this twist is going to get me to. And definitely I hope it will bring me far. But sometimes the truth will always remain as that. If this is how far it can bring me to, then probably this twist of lifestyle is not what I’m looking for. Then, if this twist allows me to experience that breakthrough, I’ll definitely move on with it. I want to hold on to things which makes me feel it’s worth the grip and choose to let go of things which totally brings me down and drags me to burdens, tiredness and leading me in circles and circles.

I both need and want a fresh start. Fresh start of who I want to be; fresh start of my entourage; fresh start of life basically. I don’t want to be tied down to disciplines and routines. I don’t want to lead life aimlessly and blindly. I don’t have to in fact. So, this fresh start begins.

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