"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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I watched inkheart already!
One word, disappointment.
It's not THAT mystical, magical & gorgeous.It is, but it's just not THAT as the way I expected it to be probably.
Oh well, the book is soo much better.
And basta turned out to be some FREAKkkk! He's this jack black look-a-like. (you get the picture uh. uggh.)
but but but BUTTTTTT, FARID TURNED OUT EVEN BETTER THAN I EXPECTED!
He's SOOO cute. I love his accent. totally man.
in the book, dustfinger is a total wimp. but he turned out alot better in the movie. He's like this macho guy. I kinda like it actually.

HAHA. Alright. enough of my movie review. it's getting a little superficial. AHA.

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on a serious note,
many things are not the same anymore. not starting to be angst or anything. but I'm trying to convince myself in believing that.
there's alot of things I wanna be honest with, towards many of you guys. but somehow or rather, it's best you don't know anything.
I hope in different ways, it'll get personal to every single person who reads this. my close friends, cliques, buddies, girlfriends, etc etc.
i love and treasure every single one of you. I truly do.
I know many times you can tell from my expression, my face, my actions, whatever you can tell from, that I'm not exactly at my very best. In simple terms, I'm not doing quite well.
And that many times, when you ask about my current being, I simply manage with only a few words.
you know what, I'm fine, really fine.
there's certain roadblocks in my life. and it's really frustrating. but i'm doing fine in getting stuffs sort out. Please trust me on that.
I hope to walk this alone myself. not trying to act tough or what. but there's nothing anyone can do in fact. It's my own emotional barrier I gotta deal with. I don't need you to be there for me always. I don't need you to provide me with advices. I don't need you to fork out time. I don't need any sacrifices. I don't expect anything from you. Not becos I'm angry with you guys, not becos I'm being too prideful or too humble. But becos, no one can do anything about it. And you don't have to feel bad about not being there or not not being able to help.
you know, it simply touches my heart to know you did care. I didn't change at all. All the way from the start, I've always been the same. like i said, things are not the same anymore, but I'm still the same. Lora. you know, lora. haha. yea.
I'll be back, I promise. (whatever this means.)
and see you around soon. (:

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