the opposite of love is not hate, it's apathy.
- Leo Bascaglia (Rachel's blog)
Love, it's intense. It generates so much emotions and makes us feel as if it is oxygen to sustain our very being. Love, it makes us feel that we can overcome all barriers and move against anything that gets in our way. And love, it makes us feel special. It feels good to know that we actually mean a whole life to someone. It's more than just the feeling of holding hands or the soft kisses on the cheek. But, it's believing that no matter what we're going through, no matter how we are feeling, that special someone will always be there to brighten our day, to know how to make us smile in our own special way.
Yet, love, it generates pain too. It hurts when we can only watch blissful smiles over the faces of others who have a shoulder over them. As a matter of fact, loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, losing someone hurts, envy hurts. It pains to lose someone so close to our hearts as if our hearts are smashed into pieces by the special one. It is so frustrating that any little thing will give us the reason to blow up. Sometimes we wish it didn't hurt so much. But it hurts because we feel it, because we are alive. It generates so much power and energy, same kind of energy that binds atoms together. And it is the excruciating pain induced from love that we wish our hearts will stop beating. We wish we were dead.
Pain, it's not the opposite of love. It's apathy. It's the numbness in our hearts when we fail to love. When we aren't able to feel for anything and anyone. It makes us cold and detach. It makes us lonely. Apathy, and we think we don't need love. Though it prevents us from going through the aftermath, pain, it robs us of the joy we deserve. It constantly decieves us of the things around us. It betrays our innate feelings towards our loved ones. Apathy, it stole away the very thing that keep us alive.
Love, so pain that it makes us wanna die. Apathy, it's when our hearts are completely dead and we don't realise it. At least with pain, we know we are still breathing and intact; alive.