Hmm, it gets pretty heavy when you decide to bury your secret deep inside you It's like a car getting jammed and stucked within those dirty ground yet dying to restart the engine and head on. Imma glad I said my piece just now. I expected your reaction. In fact, it turned out very much the same, just like the way I thought it would. But it was a relief from all the truthfulness. It felt as though I could at least breathe a lil more. All I could say was, sorry boy; I shouldn't have. If you think you didn't matter, we wouldn't have come this far. I love you, and I know I don't say enough and show enough.
Promos results were out. My weak heart felt like dying that tuesday with all the scripts I'm getting at one shot. I felt like puking, my whole body wanted to collapse. And I didn't do that well compared to midyears. Well, I expected it. I mean with so many distractions in the midst of promos, how can I actually do well aight. But I guess promoting shouldn't be a problem.
School is a shit hellhole honestly. I can't further explain that. But despite all the angsty moments and depressing times, these people are there. I truly appreciate it.
First off, LORRAINE ONG. Thanks girl. All the night studies with you and that indian were totally fun. And thanks for being there. Though your innocent mind may not understand everything, but your effort to listen and being physically there (though sometimes your soul not there) have been appreciated. And we gonna promote and mug our ass off tgt. Don't worry girl.
Mag, oh god. I know I'm the biggest racist on earth. But at least you know, I'm faithful in loving one indian and that's you! You've been alot of help in my circumstances. It really make this rough sea easier to sail through with your advices and comfort. And I told myself, if an indian bimbo can go through, so do I. HAHA. You are stronger than you think you are. And trust me, you can get so much more from life without boys.
Adina: I realised we often get into heated arguments. But guess what, it doesn't change anything within our friendship. We know ultimately, we still care and love eachother. And I hope you realise that you mean alot to me more than you think. Esther Yen: Thanks for the 50 dollar voucher, I've to first say. HAHA. And all the trouble to get me to church. I've to say, I'm a troublesome person. Sorry for that.
To two of my dearest besties. Thanks for everything. I know no matter what happen, you guys will be there. Even if one day I decide to run away from home, I know fiona will be the first to keep me in. Thanks girl. And shan, sorry for my disappearing act. I love you guys very much.
Lastly, to tommy, rach & micbay. Ty. It's comforting to know that you guys will forgive no matter how dumb and horrible I am. Tommy, I honestly felt bad when you said that you're always the last person I turned to when all else fails and esp when I get very desperate and helpless. Ok, that's not exactly true, cos you're the second last. God is always the last. HAHA. You are harsh but I know you care. Rach, whenever it comes to you, I realised I'm loss for words. It's terribly annoying to hear me whine. It sucks I know. Actually I don't really know how that sucks, maybe I should tape-record it and hear it for myself. HAHA. And micbay, I don't know why, but though we don't meet up very often, I feel that we are so connected in a special way. Ok, I hope I don't give off any lesbian vibes. Many times, you're simply be there, no matter how tough it is. And I know I can count on you.
Ty, people. I love you guys.
And to the very someone, I love you too.
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