"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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Past few days/weeks were...screwed up.
Juggling with promos and other stuffs can totally kill me.
Phonecalls, distraught thoughts, hangover parties, and the list goes on. It's really obvious how my life is sucha drama to this fucking state that I hate it to the core.
Ok, I'm very tempermental and vulgar. Shit, I need to do sth about it.
At least promos is over, but I'm nervous about the results.

And I'm totally pissed with the school timetable. It's terribly messed up.
I've to report to school for assembly at 740am for Interhouse games. Yet, my game is at 2. Worst, I'm not allowed to leave the sch. Wth. It's freaking retarded. And I totally skipped it.
What more for hours of Pw tutorials ahead. Finishing sch at only 4.

Pushing all these aside, I'm going to UK, London real soon in Nov. I seriously can't wait! I did a lil shopping for my winter stuff. Walking into vivo with the new arrivals of Winter collection along the shelves, displaying with such glam and pride, my eyes nearly popped out. Goodness, everything is England to me. I need money. Lotsa of it. Maybe a thousand dollar all the way to christmas. It should be enough. Eh, maybe not. Maybe just a few hundred dollars more? haha.

Recently, I've been flooding my spare time with movies, dramas and books. Man, it's totally incested with love, romance, murder, sex, gore and whatnot. If I just lose my mind one day, I think i will become a killer. Omg, that's totally fun. I already have people in mind.

Excuse me for the whimy whines. I guess I'm not in any mood for anything nowadays. It sucks I know. It feels as if I'm keeping sth from you guys. Thing is, not everyone understands. Or rather, not everyone wish to understand. And I'm not ready for any scoldings or guilt trips. I'm too tired. I just want to do things in my own strike if that's possible.
Well, I shall end off with saying, hey, love you guys the same. Nothing between us will change. It's still the same.

Ok, off to my bigbangtheory. (:


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