"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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BACK TO SQUARE ONE.

I'm back from UK, and obviously I'm suffering from jetlag looking from this unearthly hour that I'm still online. UK's great. The places are beautiful, so are the people. It feels really relax, and I could just gaze my eyes upon the beauty of the mountains and streets. Pictures are soon to be out when my friends upload them.
And joehann dan, you suck, I tried contacting you at UK, you didn't pick up your call. I was thrilled to see you, you totally broke my heart. :( Thank god you are coming back later in the month, Imy soo much.

As I returned, my heart sank. You're back to reality girl, I told myself. All the troubles that I cast away and left behind in Spore, crept into my heart the moment I'm back home. England feels like a dream. I didn't have to worry about life, family, boys, school, etc. Coming back feels as if I've got a whole load of shit waiting for me to overcome. When I shut my eyes, I could sense the pressure and tension overwhelming my being. And I knew 2010 would be another year of shit. It feels like a thunderstorm about to arrive, along with a choppy sea. It really feels damn crappy.

Resolution, I wanna be capable of kissing my scars away.
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