"I'm not a born actress, as such, I care about expressing feelings." -Audrey Hepburn

Many times I care too much about feelings and feelings make up my whole world for me. It makes me wonder whether the world I'm living in is the real one. Cause I feel surreal in my own delusion more than anywhere else.

I want to play a grand piano on some gorgeous stage with a million audience.
I want to learn as many instruments as possible; saxophone will be next.
I want to dive in a swimming pool-sized of chocolate fondue.
I want a field flooded with orange daisies.
I want to teleport to Berklee!
I want a library of books with classics, and very very very extremely good books & novels.
I want to own a home movie theatre with my very own ice cream fridge.
I want to direct my own gore movie and write my own gore novel. (this is thrilling.)
I want to get married to some rich guy and be a tai tai. HAH.

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CAPTURE WITHIN A MIND.

Wow. I seriously have no time to keep this blog alive. Well, Year 2 in Jc is really hectic. And I want A's to be over at this instant moment. :(

I lost my momentum to mug this past week. Been hitting town & cq lately. So pls people! IF YOU SEE ME, PLS ASK ME TO STUDY. AND STOP ASKING ME OUT. (esp jo & hewerboy.)

Time: 150am. Just got home with hewerboy. We chilled around the park and talked for pretty long.

Thing is, many stuff have been flickering in my head, like some flash. And I know it's really absurd for me to say such stuff. I know I'm gonna miss you for being away for a month. But I have this strong feeling that somehow I'm gonna lose what I have now. And I hate that feeling of being stripped away, hard & totally unexpected - been there. I don't wanna go through that cycle cos once is enough. Twice is like digging a bigger hole in a wound attempting to heal.

I'm afraid to give you my all. I'm afraid to love you completely. What if behind your beautiful face and kind words, you're just bribing me. Maybe you're just reeling me in until you turn around and drop me. I'd fall so far and never be able to recover. I wish I could see the ending sometimes so that I would know if I should hold on to you and keep going or just let it all end before I get up too high.

Somehow I need the assurance and I don't know how you gonna give it.

I know this is not even an update. A mere note for hewerboy. If you are smart enough, you've already gotten the update - hewerboy. haha. Ok, I'm a lil cranky now. Good night.

Actually two.

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