Adiéu, mon chéri. Je t'aime.
Alright. Bummers to start.
First, Germany lost and I lost my bet. Not monetary bet. Something worse than that though.
Second, I failed math despite thinking that I could at least pass. It's really demoralizing esp when you really did try. And tried the hardest outta the rest of the subjects. I really really need some help.
Third, I'm suffering from a 'sleep too much' syndrome. I sleep for 12 hours. Worst, I sleep at 6am in the morning. My body clock is not functioning well.
Sidenote,
Today I learnt about making decisions. Making wise decisions.
And to say something to this friend : leaving church was a wise decision for me. There are many things that you don't see. If you see people learning and growing, I'm sorry I don't. Cause I see a group of people growing towards emptiness and conformity.
I can't speak for anyone but myself. And I'm not being judgemental.
And I can't say I'm better off. But at least I know, I can be myself. The only way to stay alive and feel alive, is to be true to myself. And I can't be what the church wants me to be. Being stifled and suffocated in an organisation, I don't see any growth of any sort.
My main point in saying all these is to let you know why I left. And to tell you've no right to judge me and comment should I or should I not leave. You aren't leading my life, or ever a listener to me, so you've no right to make a comment like that.
Ok, back t sch life. I'm very disturbed by the results from midyears. I think I really need to gear up and be focus. I'm panicking cause there's only 4 months left. Ugh, and there goes my nightlife. :(
Fingers crossed, study hard and study harder.
Goodbye to you loved ones. Goodbye to you beloved. I want to tell you I will be back. But I'm afraid I'm only back to wreck you. So, goodbye.
Adiéu, mon chéri. Je t'aime.