Part-time lover, full-time friend.
I can't help feeling so dark and shallow.
People say, "You will make up of a very wonderful friend, an awesome buddy. But as a lover...I find it hard. To me, you're a part-time lover, but a full time friend."
Everytime people say things like this, it breaks my heart apart. Because I know somehow I can never be first in their lives. Maybe not even second or third or fourth. I look myself into the mirror, and I wonder, am I not good enough to be a lover?
Truth is, I can be a friend but I want to be a lover.
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