Happily Ever After...
It cracks every time it sees you and think about all the possibilities of why you may depart the owner of the heart one day. Being a second lover is never easy.
I always thought love speaks of everything beautiful and pure. It speaks of ordinary things that are extraordinary and transforms outrageous dreams into reality. Yet, your love speaks of everything opposite. It satiates all sorts of uncertainties and questions. And because of that, I can never imagine what's ahead. I just focus on loving you everyday.
I feel like I'm merely another fling or an occasional hook up. It's as if I'm made up in your imagination. And everything I did for you is out of a burning desire where I dance between those lines - to feel real; to reimburse this feeling of surreality. You make me feel like I live in a painting, a photograph, a movie or even a book. I am anything but real. I don't even know if this feeling is wrong or magical.
I fear, because I've risked my soul to love despite knowing I may just plunge to death the moment you let go where I don't belong anywhere in your life or imagination anymore.
And in my imagination, you hold my hand and lead me to your heart. I no longer need to be a second lover; I no longer need to remain within your imagination; I no longer am a fiction.
This shall be my happily ever after. And tell me, do I deserve this happy ending that only you can fulfill?
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Hi fellow followers, I shall be blogging lesser and maybe not anymore at the moment due to a very critical examination which will determine many things in future. So it's either I make it or break it. Please keep me in prayers. And I will be back after 26th Nov which marks my freedom.
Good luck to everyone who are taking A's.
To fatty: I wonder why I still specify that this message is for you especially when my entire blog is meant for you. Maybe not entirely. But at least from the time I met you till now. Imy and Ily. Though I say that what matters most is what your heart feels for me, but somehow, the only way to translate those feelings to my heart is by actions. Idk how to make you change your mind. Idk what I can do. And it breaks my heart because everything lies within your will and I play no part in changing your mind or even the deeper essence, your heart. I dw to hear anymore sorrys or I feel terrible. But I want you to do one thing about your apologies - to love wholeheartedly. Maybe it's impossible for now. But I'm willing to wait. And waiting means believing that you will get there one day. Ily.
